Bittersweet

People can be lost sometimes. Either after facing some troubles or getting through hard situations. At this moment, we must stop for awhile and looking back at everything we've done before. Trying to picture every-single-thing in a bigger view and spotted the missing pieces of puzzle to get things back in shape and see the problems with another perspectives. It might be hard and confusing, sometimes feel like everything so vague. It probably takes months or years, for finding yourself and where you belong. No need to compare yourself to others. This is YOUR crucial time, for focusing on yourself. It's time for making dialogue with yourself about what you've done, what you gonna do later. During this time, you might be crying silently every night but then conceal your sadness in the next morning with bright smile. Or maybe you just fade away from your social life, and want to keep everything for yourself. It's okay, for choosing yourself over anyone else. At ...

To be honest, tank top wasn't my thing. I have a pair of big arms and I was so afraid how if people mocked me, because I'm in their standards.  I wore tank top as I wore at this post , I have to say that I wasn't really comfortable that moment, not only because of people glares, but because of my own perception about 'perfect girl'. I always thought that I don't deserve to wear tank top and feel beautiful about this body. When I took pictures for this post, I constantly hate them, and asked my friend to take another pictures, again and again.  But I asked myself, Aren't you tired for pleasing society with their 'beauty standards'?  So now, I decided to walk away--step by step--from my insecurities, about body image that I always thought 'beautiful' that beautiful girl should be has flawless skin, straight hair, slim and tall body but still has 'a shape' (I mean, aren't most of us constructed like that...