Bittersweet

People can be lost sometimes. Either after facing some troubles or getting through hard situations. At this moment, we must stop for awhile and looking back at everything we've done before. Trying to picture every-single-thing in a bigger view and spotted the missing pieces of puzzle to get things back in shape and see the problems with another perspectives. It might be hard and confusing, sometimes feel like everything so vague. It probably takes months or years, for finding yourself and where you belong. No need to compare yourself to others. This is YOUR crucial time, for focusing on yourself. It's time for making dialogue with yourself about what you've done, what you gonna do later. During this time, you might be crying silently every night but then conceal your sadness in the next morning with bright smile. Or maybe you just fade away from your social life, and want to keep everything for yourself. It's okay, for choosing yourself over anyone else. At ...

To be honest, tank top wasn't my thing. I have a pair of big arms and I was so afraid how if people mocked me, because I'm in their standards.  I wore tank top as I wore at this post , I have to say that I wasn't really comfortable that moment, not only because of people glares, but because of my own perception about 'perfect girl'. I always thought that I don't deserve to wear tank top and feel beautiful about this body. When I took pictures for this post, I constantly hate them, and asked my friend to take another pictures, again and again.  But I asked myself, Aren't you tired for pleasing society with their 'beauty standards'?  So now, I decided to walk away--step by step--from my insecurities, about body image that I always thought 'beautiful' that beautiful girl should be has flawless skin, straight hair, slim and tall body but still has 'a shape' (I mean, aren't most of us constructed like that...

Last weekend I really wanted to go somewhere with a different atmosphere, and refreshing my mind. So I decided to go Living with LOF.  Living with LOF (Lot of Flowers) is a place that sold flowers and also foods, this place was created by Kittymanu, a young lady with creative and positive mind. It located at Jl. H. Junaedi No. 3 South Cipete, Cilandak, Jakarta. You can easily found this one, because it has very unique building.  I pronounce Living with LOF exactly same as Living with Love, and I personally found that Kittymanu want to remind me to live your life with love and love your life, plus don't forget to pursue your dreams. I found passion and love here, everything looks so perfect and personal here. it feels like your dream house with lot of flowers, and you can just sip your favourite coffees and enjoy the twilight here. The place itself was really unique and refreshing because it has lots of flowers. I don't real...

((first thing first, please click this --well I highly recommend you to turn on Banda Neira-Beranda )) I secretly hoped to leave home really soon, when I was young, five years ago--I guess. I was really hoping to be a decision maker of every choices I had. Living alone in the city where far away from your hometown give you another melancholic vibe and make you realize how important home is. Frankly, this is not that scary as I thought before, I mean I already lived alone since (almost) four years ago so I thought moved to somewhere further wouldn't be any big problem, especially I'm not a kind of people who easily to miss something/someone. But,  I often feel empty and lonely, especially in the night after office-hours. I mean, after lot of laughs and then everything just silent and I'm alone again. Then suddenly, I miss everything about home. I miss the smell of my room at Surabaya (even if its not my hometown), lavender plus burn stuff (because of my aromatherapy candle...

I took internship subject at this 8th semester  which is I have to be an intern on some company, and I decided to go to Jakarta for it. No special reason, I just want to get experience as much as I can. I want to take any opportunity I had, and voila, here I am at Jakarta.  I have particular obsession with Paris. I've been falling in love with this city since when I was on elementary school, by learned geography class. I often watched movies, with a Parisian girls, drink coffee plus eat croissant and she reads book, and surely with a beret hat. So, why not I took the concept, eat croissant (plus salad, minus drinking a cup of coffee and reading book)  and just chit chat with my boyfriend at Sophie Authentique.  Source: Sophie Authentique Source: Sophie Authentique Source: Sophie Authentique Source: Sophie Authentique Sophie Authentique known as a natural French bread maker, the process of making the bakery is handmade without using mold. I l...

(Agva Vista 200) Had experience to took another pictures by analogue camera again. After at this post , I only succeeded with around fifteen pictures from thirty-six shoot, this one honestly quite good (if I compared with last time I tried analogue camera). Because even if lots of blurry pictures but still quite good (I need justification ok?). My friend asked me to took pictures together, just play around the city. Again, as I told you before I always enjoy the other side of this metropolitan city and just enjoyed the old building around here. We decided to go to two places, House of Sampoerna Museum and De Javasche Bank Museum. I already visited De Javasche Bank Museum at this post but I went there again, because why not for visiting that place--again? And here pictures we took (and yeah, my friend took most of these pictures). Enjoy!  (Kodak Gold 200) (Kodak gold 200) (Kodak gold 200) (Agva vista 200) (Kodak gold...